When October comes, it's very difficult for me. I think about my Father, and how much I miss him. I'm a bit of a mess all month and go into cocoon mode. I hide. When the 19th comes, it's a very sad day. It never gets easier. I cry a lot. This year, I decided to go to Church. It was hard to go, especially today, but I'm glad I did. It brought me some peace and enlightenment. The Cemetary is a place I go to talk to my Tata (Dad). It's very hard to get through the tough times. I feel for all of you